FC 365 (1-5)

I've travelled many miles. But my life has come so much further than that! It's been 5 official days of living here in The Fort and so far...i'm loving it! Every minute to be exact :) I've had many friends and family making requests for me to keep up on my blog so they can keep up with me so here goes! I wanted to do something a little different than just writing about my life here. So I'm going to start FC 365. I'm going to take a picture of everyday i am here so y'all can see my life rather than just read it! so here goes:)

Day One! I did a lot of exploring of the town. This pic was taken while I was at the Colorado welcome center getting maps. I still haven't gotten used to the view of the west. On of my greatest hopes is that I never take living this close to the beauty that is the mountains for granted. As you will see most of my first pics are of the mountains:) I still have to remember to take my camera with me some occasions.

Day Two: Meet Layla and Penny Lane. No, I did not move to Colorado and immediately get two dogs:) They are my roommates (and amazing friends) K and K's dogs. I've never lived with big dogs before and I'm loving it:) I've taken them both on walks (working towards running but i've got to get used to the altitude!) and played around the house with them when not searching for the right job for me:) They are so much fun and give so much love! Don't be surprised if after i find my own place, a dog soon follows.

Day Three: SNOW, SNOW, SNOW! I'm thinking i brought the snow with me but I really don't mind for now! We got around 17 inches between Tuesday night, Wednesday and Thursday. The dogs love it, i got to dig my car out, and then drive up the mountain into more snow! It's amazing how snow can make everything more beautiful. This picture is looking out our front porch on Wednesday afternoon. So this wasn't even all the snow!! Love it:)

Day Four: I survived the drive up to Estes! It was a beautiful, windy, slow, fun ride! I wasn't sure that i'd even make it up to my interview with the hotel but thankfully the roads were very clear. The interview went really well:) It would definitely be a change and a challenge for me if given the opportunity! I won't know for a few weeks so for now I'm still handing out resumes otherwise. I've also gotten really good at taking pictures while driving...probably not so safe but i've gotten some good ones! We also made homemade pizza and had girls night that night. Both were sooo good:) Still a little angry that Gordanna didn't get kicked off though....

Day Five: I drove K to the DIA to make her flight to the deep south, and on the way home shot this one. If you look close you can see the storm brewing in the mountains. which means more snow up there, which means it's time to break out the snowboarding gear! What? I don't have any snowboarding gear? Ah, yes. This girl has been cooped up in flat old Iowa for too many years! Don't worry. Very soon I will change my 'very amateur' snowboarding status! And my do those mountains look good!!

So there you go. My first installment of FC 365. I hope to be back soon with more wonderful stories of my amazing life out here in the Rockies! And I promise to post some pictures with me actually in them at some point too:)

always,

amanda

all my bags are packed...

four days separate
now from new
my stomach turns
with excitement
with a twinge of fear
of unknown
but mostly
i can taste the freedom
i'm ready
for the biggest adventure
this girl has ever seen

leaving behind
a city i've loved
people i'll miss
terribly...
a life that i won't
new experiences
mountains
fresh air
natural beauty
this is it
i want to get in now
and drive to there
but patience
is a virute


reinvention
finding me
the whole
all natural
through and through
me
and rediscovering
truth
of what i deserve
of what i desire
of what it means
to be me
for me


sounds selfish
maybe that's
exactly necessary
to no longer find
validation
in what you think
i am me
the only me i can be
and that's okay
no apologies
i may fail
i may succeed
either way
i'm on my way
on my way


and i can't stop smiling...

my playlist...

so i'm totally stealing this from one of my best friends ever but she'll understand!! :):) or at least i hope so...

i've said it thousands of times that music is my life. i can barely go ten minutes without having some type of music going. so i have decided to compile a list of some of the songs i'm currently loving. just in case you need some new music to jam to. or maybe you're just wondering what song i have in my head today. whatever the case... here is my list:)

1- You, the Night, & Candlelight - Dave Barnes one of my top ten favorite artists in general, one of his newer songs
2- Longer I Run - Peter Bradley Adams see also Lay Your Head Down and Queen of Hearts
3- Streetlights - Ludo
4- Too Late for That - A. Rex
5- You Are the Best Thing - Ray Lamontange just fun :)
6- You and I - Ingrid Michaelson she is abosultely wonderful...
7- Chin Up - Copeland
8- Morning Sun - Kelley Stoltz
9- Closer Than You Think - Fiction Family see also When She's Near and Out of Order...new favorite band :)
10- Never Going Back to OK - The Afters
11- Time to Pretend - MGMT you've probably heard this one but i just like it :)
12- Naked as We Came - Iron & Wine see also Love And Some Verses


I'll leave you with that:) just a small window into my musical mind... Enjoy!

my life isn't interesting. no one would ever want to record it for reality t.v. i will never have a plethera of blog followers. i will never write a bestselling book. my words may never be seen by more than a handful of people.

does that make me less signifcant? I don't have profound statements. I don't have stories of great love. or of terrible heartbreak. (okay i do but i don't think blog world wants to hear me whine about a story that's two years old) or of my small child who has done something new today.

i do have a few stories about random events of my day. plunging a toilet in fact. what an awesome way to start out a night of work. but who wants to hear that story? no one. and honestly i really don't want to tell it. it was gross and embarassing (for the guest and myself) and so not worth re-telling.

i read blogs like www.mattlogelin.com and i want to curl up in a ball and just cry. it makes me not want to fall in love...for fear of losing it. but i look at a guy like matt. so real. so forthcoming. and a little part of me is jealous. what?!?! jealous of a widower left to raise a beautiful daughter all on his own? a man who has struggled everyday of the past year to begin life again with out the love of his life, the mother of his absolutely beautiful daughter. yes, i am selfishly jealous of him. that he found the true love of his life. that he spent 12 beautiful and blissful years with her. That he is the father to this absolutely beautiful daughter. that his daily blog is read by millions daily. I'm jealous of all these small things but grossly I am jealous of his making a difference. His words have affforded comfort to many in a similar situation. and has shed light for those who may not fully be able to comprehend the situation and what it brings. His life has made a difference. He can make me cry. He can make me laugh. all through words on a screen.

and then i turn around and look at myself. what have i done?!

i think i'm just meant to be a worker bee in this hive they call earth. I'll always be an extra. never the main character. now i just have to come to terms with that...