not too big
not too far
each step i take
closer to you
i can see the end
but it's the inbetween
i get caught in
never sure
which way to turn
but each mistake
i take in, move on
sunrise will bring
new chances, new choices
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there are reasons
for happenings they say
and meaning can be found
but i don't want
reasonings and meanings
i want it all back
the selfish make excuses
i pretend to have none
but denial won't help
my thoughts are daily drawn
to the could haves
and what ifs of life
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patience.
for what is meant to be.
for joy
for prosperity
for contentment.
i am not the girl
to sit and wait for
life to happen.
i rarely sit on the sidelines.
i like being out in the game.
i never know exactly
what i want.
until i lose it
or it hits me right in the face.
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how do you follow dreams
when you don't know what they are?
how does a life look so complete
and yet be crumbling all at once?
how can i make a difference
in such an afflicted world?
WHERE DO I BEGIN?
it all seems so simple
but still so very complex.
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sometimes
i feel lost.
no thing to pull me
in one direction
or another.
no one to tell me
which way is home.
no feeling that says
this is it
this is you.
who am i really...
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real world
not as predicted
penny to penny
no fulfillment
only in empty bottles
that lead nowhere
and leave me with
nothing...
what is out there?
i ache to discover
love?
life?
meaning?
they must be somehwere...
so begins my search.
