it's funny how timing works in life. things happen, good and bad, so you can learn from them. and usually just at the time you need it. i've recently had a time where what felt like everything to me had been taken. my car, my keys, my ID, my phone. and it all made me realize how dependent i had become on these things, when that's all they really are...things. over the past few weeks i've come to appreciate the bigger 'things' in my life. my health, my loving family, my friends, who i may not get to see often but care more for me than i really ever knew. these are the things that for the past year, as i struggled through a lot of pain and a lot of self doubt, i have taken for granted. i can't say i am yet the person who i want to be. i will always have faults and misgivings. but i am re-learning to appreciate the things that matter. the people who matter.
life is all about second chances. learn from mistakes and move on. forgiveness is always the answer, though sometimes a struggle.
i am looking forward to a rebuilding year. one with many second chances that i am not willing to pass up. and hopefully some brand new chances and challenges that i can face with utter certainty that i will make it through.
and...the cubs will go to the world series. if we all just believe...:)
always, amanda
